LABOR DAY





Today is such a totally wasted day. i guess it is nice to relax and not have to go to work or school but I do so enjoy the money and in my profession there are no such thing as holidays. It is also a sad day because our kids have to go back home. They are not really kids but they will always be my babies. My son is 6'4" and is 17, my soon to be step-son is 15 and not quite as tall. We have had an enjoyable weekend full of outdoorsy kinds of things. We all are so tired.





Now as this week approaches there are several things to look forward to. I am still excited about the new season of my favorite TV shows beginning Tuesday. I have to check but I don't think there is anything on Monday to watch. It has been a strange situation in my community because my fiance and his sister got into a physical altercation last Sunday. She made some choice comments to me and I to her, so feelings are mutual. Those 2 have a bad relationship anyway and she antagonized the fight by hitting him in the head. I by no means advocate violence, but she deserved that and more. It is so redneck to fight but sometimes it has to be done. I wish I could have hit her. I have only been in one fight my entire life and as large is she is she would have killed me. I know when to keep my mouth shut!!!! She just makes me so mad because of her parenting skills. I have not been the best mother in the world, and have made plenty of mistakes. I like to think that I am a good mother now and am working to improve myself everyday. Kids are a blessing and she sees them as a nuisance. She has a 5 year old and 2 year old. The 5 year old stays with us almost all the time. The only time he stays at her house is if his cousin comes over otherwise he is here with us. The younger one stays with her. I haven't gotten attached to him since the dad is the man she live with right now and he makes her keep him. He is a hellion of a child and so I am kind of grateful that he has done that even though I do worry about him. ENOUGH of that.



That was my soapbox for this morning. I wish they made a holiday from housework instead of your regular work. I would much rather go to work than do housework!!!!! Off to see the vacuum!!!!

good times ....coming soon

well, this may be a little of course for my usual blogs but I just had to mention that this is the last weekend of summer. i look forward to the fall season so much. first, the arrival of cooler weather and HALLOWEEN. MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE HOLIDAY. i haven't really got to go to many halloween parties in the last 2 years but i still enjoy the fever of the season of the dead. i am an avid vampire lover and fangbanger which is a year long agenda. gothic living is my speed. another reason to be excited is the closeness of New Moon. I love the Twilight saga and wish that Edward would come through my window right now. I am not particulary sure why i have such a facination with the undead but whatever it is it brings something out in me that nothing else can. maybe it is the possibility of something other that damn humans on the earth. something bigger than us. something that we can not understand. with all the research to understand the earth's operation, hoping that there is something that can eliminate the smartest and richest is such an appeasing thougi ht. I have grown to dislike most humans. the mere chance of escaping reality if only momentarily is enough for me.

With the chance of sounding mundane, i am also looking forward to the fall tv season. it starts next week with the return of sons of anarchy, the new show Vampire Diaries, and Dexter next sunday. also the season finale of true blood is next week.

that's all for now.... wish i was getting up for the "day" now...

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EXOTIC DANCERS, STRIPPERS, AND CLASSICAL BALLERINAS: WHICH ARE YOU?

Today has been a true test of my ability to have some sort of class. It would be so easy for me to have lost my cool and acted like a stripper who had just had her drink spilled, but instead I pulled off my heels and played "swan queen"

You see I am involved in a relationship with a fuc*** up family. Everyone has problems but my significant other has 2 idiot brothers and a bitch of a sister, Each with their own vices and attitudes. Well honey they have met their match. We have been together for 3 years and plan on getting married in October but I have had to earn my keep. My fiance, thinking it was cool to be dating an ex-stripper, had to tell his brothers. The things that were cool in our 20's aren't so cool in our 30's. Word like this travels fast and soon everyone knows. Sister-in-laws automatically turn their noses up at me and his sister wants to automatically kick my ass. Who knows why? Getting back to topic...over the weekend Chuck, my fiance, and his sister got into an altercation involving her boyfriend. He is truly a piece of shit. They have a 18 month old son and she has a 5 year old. He will not help her any but always has money for drugs and alcohol. This made Chuck very mad and they actually got into a fist fight about all of this. The next thing I know she is coming after me, Considering she weighs oh about 350 pounds, it isn't a fair fight but who says fighting is fair. I would be pressed to find the first object that I could find and bash it at her. Today we were alone for the first time since the fight (me and his sister). We didn't speak. She tried to get me started but I ignored her. This took alot of willpower. I am used to standing up for what I believe in and standing there telling what an excellent mother she is goes all over me.

I guess the bottom line is that at some point you must grow up and develop some class. Maybe the reason she irritates me so much is because I thought I was a terrible mother for so long and am just now developing healthy relationships with my family again. Whatever the reason I feel like I made the transition from stripper to ballerina today. Not only did I react in an adult way, I also would have made my mother proud. She always said a Lady Does Not Fight. There are always ways to get back at someone in a somewhat positive way and maybe they will learn a lesson as well.

MY FIRST POST

Welcome all to my blog. This is my first posting and I am very excited to be writing this. It is a fairly calm evening here at my castle and with the exclusions of regular chores and duties the rest of the night is mine to do as I like.

Today was a tempermental day. I find myself wanting everything my way and I feel like I should not have to compromise about anything...ladies don't sell yourselves short. With many years spent as an exotic dancer at clubs all over the country I certainly have had my share of never getting what I want and always trying to please someone else. To do that now would make all that sweat and sexiness in vain.

I can't complain to much though because alot of what I have I can thank many lonely men out there for. But 12 years of my life is alot to sacrifice for some Jimmy Choo's and a few Gucci bags.

I now have a great family and am rebuilding relationships that I tore apart during those years.

I hope this blog will help some people find a small amount of comfort in knowing that they are not alone. Even though you may not enjoy your career, family, etc., nobody is truly ever satisfied. It is always never enough. Don't give up. What you do not like today will change tomorrow, only if YOU make it.

READERS please message me and give me some ideas.... I have been through everything from spending 8 years in college and 2 masters degrees to 12 years on the pole, and for those of you wondering 2 stints in rehab. I feel like I have so much to offer and this could possibly be my outlet.

"till next time.

GlamGirl